Focus

Can't focus.

Want to focus. Can't focus.

Need to focus. Can't focus.

Too distracting. Need to be in there. Need to make sure she's OK.

Mommy's in there, making sure she's OK. I need to be here, doing what needs to get done.

I'm scared. I need to know she's OK.

She'll be fine, it's nothing. Children get these bugs. It happens.

Writing helps. It controls the mania. Gives an outlet for the panic. Can't cry - Mommy needs the support of a strong Daddy.

Don't want to be strong. Want to be in there.

My heart hurts. My head hurts.

I'll stay here. I need to focus.